I hate myself
I’ll be okay
I wanna be all skin and bones
Party all day
Like I don’t care
Oh, I just wanna be alone
I eat too much
I throw it up
Drink alcohol
To numb it all
My body is a rave
And all I crave
Is euphoria
I loathe myself
Such a cliche
Swear I don’t wanna feel this way
I crush my pills
Just like my feels
My thoughts are spinning like the wheels
A race car out of control
My thumb just doesn’t stop the scroll
My body is a rave
And all I crave
Is euphoria
Welcome to my party
Let’s get high
Welcome to my party
Where I’ll cry
I’m gonna dance to the melodies falling apart
I’m gonna dance to the beat of my breaking heart
I think too much and I fuck it up
I ruminate on things I hate
Where’s my hype
I’m supposed to be the A-type
Archetype, prototype, stereotype
Pick me up
I fall again
I mess it up
I’ll be okay
Just gotta figure it out
Gimme a minute
Gotta figure it out
Promise I’ll get it
Welcome to my party
Let’s get high
Welcome to my party
Where I’ll cry
I’m gonna dance to the melodies falling apart
I’m gonna dance to the beat of my breaking heart
It’s my party
I guess I’ll cry if I want to
I hate myself
But you never knew that, did you?
credits
from Euphoria,
released November 26, 2021
Written, Produced & Performed by LÂLKA
Additional Vocal Production by Donatachi
Mixed & Mastered by Becki Whitton
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